What Was On The Shirt

Today was rather eventful. Apart from realising that I can't even form a proper grammar-free sentence at first try anymore, I celebrated a friend's birthday, in which I believe was definitely somewhere in the top five birthday celebrations he's ever had.

If you're reading this dude, happy birthday...again. Remember what I said about being allowed to fuck up for one more year before turning 20. :)

anyway

Was looking for a shirt to go out, and then I saw my old Form 5 uniform, the one a lot of people signed on during the last OFFICIAL DAY of Form 5 2008. It's always been there but after the last day of secondary school, I guess I never took the time to just look at it and read what people wrote.

Then i came across what a friend who was very close to me wrote.

Below the initials, it read, "I'm sorry for everything. Be well in life. Hope we meet again.".

You have to know that our relationship was totally torn apart ever since the PMR days because we didn't treasure it as much as other silly things. But after reading that, I just, :)

It kinda made me realise one thing too.

Making friends, some people may say it's easy. But finding real friends you can talk with, that's like finding a needle in a haystack. So when you do find it, you should hold on to it. I know some people who find it and unconcsiously let it go because of different reasons. And to say that true friends will be there for you no matter what is true, but let's face it, true to a certain extent. Eventually, best friends do become nothing but a memory if there isn't much contact. It only works if the two sides work together to keep the ship chugging along.

I guess for my case, I honestly say I fucked up the friendship just as much as the person did, and if i had to go back and change one thing, it would be the minute I told myself that it was going to be worth it to screw everything up.

Finding someone who isn't your supposed other half but makes you happy for the most part is already hard enough. Why waste it on anything that equates to nothing when it's sized up with your friendship?

All this gets me thinking about how much I care for the few good friends I was lucky enough to make. Eventhough i don't show it, you guys should know that it's each and everyone of you that keeps me smiling and gives reason to each and every one of it. If there were times where I made you doubt that i was not there for you, i did not know you anymore or just merely gave you a hard time, I am sorry. Know that y'all are always in my thoughts.