WARNING: MY MOST SELF-OBESESSED POST EVER.

Call me crazy, but I've been thinking a lot about death lately. Not because I find death fascinating, but honestly, just because I'd like to see, from a very selfish point-of-view, how'd things be on this earth if I went to sleep and woke up in Heaven or Hell.

I know I know, things would prolly still stay the same, but if I'd die tomorrow, or anytime in the short-term future, would I actually be able to say that, "hey, I enjoyed what I had on Earth"?

My answer is at the moment, EFFING YES.

Bet you thought it was gonna be an emo post.

I'm actually fortunate enough to meet so many people from different backgrounds and yet we all still can unsurprisingly get along just like that. I've met douchebags too la, but hey, I'm not complaining. Those people should be credited 'cause i model myself to not be like 'em anyway.

I've gone through both success and epic fails, but most importantly, I made such a crapload of mistakes on the way, and believe you me, there's bound to be bigger mistakes up ahead. Though I may regret making a couple of those really insanely pimple-size mistakes, I swear that after going through them, I'd never ever do the same mistake twice. EVER. Fo shizzle your mom's nizzle.

And the love I felt and gave to the people I know, I know that all the people I know that they will always be there, one way or another, as I will be for them.

I'm posting this very confusing post up because I saw sooooo many stars just now at some place. It was inspiring enough to reflect back on what I already went through, and I can't wait for what's in store.

But if the good lord says that I've served my purpose on Earth and is called back Home, know that I am content with my life, and whatever mere things I did to make you guys smile, even if it was for one damn minute

:)

For My Father

"I love you son"

"I know dad. You tell me everyday"

That was a quite from the movie Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs. Movie was overall good, filled with funny scenes, along with Disney's always-close-to-perfect "aww"-themes that they always instill in their movies. Seriously tho', I think the art work and graphics were just superb.

After sitting in Hall 2 for approximately one and a half hours watching the movie, I realised started to think of my dad and how much I miss him. Not to say i don't miss him on a daily basis lah, but it never struck out that much until tonight. I guess after watching sooo many movies with father-son related themes wihtout feeling too much sorrow, this one broke the camel's back. ( or whatever the saying is)

I don't really know what to say when people start to ask when people ask me how does my dad go to work if I drive my car to uni, let alone talk about my father. LOL. I know it sounds pathetic, but I always pause to choose my words carefully. Even now, I'm sort of struggling to put words that will fit the frame as to what I want to say tonight. So, here it goes.



Dad,
It's been many years already since you went on to live in Paradise. And yet, the hole you left in mummy, Jojo and my lives still remain. No one ever failed to remind us of the man you built yourself to be within the 49 years, 8 months and 24 days you were put on this realm of Man's first life.

Went to watch Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs last night with a few friends. And there was a character that reminded me so much of you.

He wanted the best for his child,

just as you did.

He woke up everyday and told him that he loved his son,

just like you did...

He put his own health and life before the security of his family,

just as you did...

He always made sure he let his son know he loved him every single day,

just like you did.

I remembered one of the last things you told me. You were lying down on the sofa in our house, when you asked me to come over. Mom was sitting on the bed, listening to every word you struggled to say despite the bad cough and pain you were in. And up to this day, I promise to pursue what you have asked me to do. Not because it was a mere last wish from my dad, but because even after you continuously keep giving and giving this family everything, it was the only thing you asked of me to do. If you were alive today, I know that you would be proud to see the many opportunities that have been opened to me at the uni. I won't list them out, for you already know what they are anyway. But hey, who's to say that if you were still here with us, we wouldn't be in Perth right now? I would be studying in Information Tech., and you will be back in school pursuing your lifelong dream of becoming a pastor, just as we initially planned out.

Mummy misses you so much too, She has gone back to work, because she has found an opportunity to do what she loves to do, and that is to educate children. She always said that even if they are constantly a bit louder than the average adult, children are always genuine when they ask questions. Bet you're laughing your butt off everytime you see mom have to instill discipline. :) Jojo has decided to pursue her Masters, but has been offered many job opportunities ever since she left NUS. I see so much of you, in the logic and the temper sense, in her. I'm sure deep in her heart of hearts, she misses you as much as we do.

The last Christmas we spent together, the four of us, I still remember it very very clearly. We were in the room, you were lying down, Mom was sitting beside you, and Jo and I were sitting on the sofa's hand rest. And.we.all.just.talked. It was the best family Christmas we had.

It's now 1.22am, and I have so much to say, but I shall stop for now. I know I have said this already, but I miss you so much. But I want you to know, that despite you not being here physically, what keeps me going everyday is knowing that you're still watching over us up there with God.

I never needed to say this,
Because you always knew,

~

But I'll willingly say it, ten times, a hundred times, a million times, a billion times,
"Dad, I Miss You, and I Will Always Love You".

And please dear reader, until you have lost someone as close as a father to you, don't you DARE come close to believing or saying this post is emo.

Dear Friend

Dear friend,

I know it has been a tough few days for you, the reasons, you know why. But this is part and parcel of life. I honestly can understand where you are coming from even if you don't say it, but like you said, take this as one experience and thank Him for the wonderful time. To let go is a very long and hard task, but I am sure you will find one day that to let go is the best thing you can do for both parties. I do not wish to go into detail about this, but let this be a proof that no matter how bad the pain, or how alone you feel, in reality, you are never alone. Just come to us and we will talk about it if it means to see you happy again, just like you were before. Chin up, God would never let His children go through something without a reason. God bless and take care.

:)

Updates, Covers, MBO Review,

Now, I realised that my blog, scratch that, I, have this weird trend, of posting a happy post and then posting an emo post after that. It sucksssss! So Imma try to minus out the emo posts as the emo comes along. After all, nobody wants to see an emo drama series when they can get a romantic comedy. *whuuut?

To start things off on a positive note, got chosen to do some oral presentation recording thing on campus. woot. Gotta shorten the speech down from 13 to 10 minutes max... D: Congrats to Morgan and Joel for getting chosen too!

I did a crazy mofo cover on FaceBook last night and it involved all the songs that have affected the process of my growing up up til this very year. LOL. It was fun and all that, but who actually thought that the transformation from childhood to teenager could be summed up by four VERY VERY familiar songs that I'm sure have musically entered each and every of your ears before. o_O

Chef Won-g is back.
Keith is obviously the guy. Sadly, the girl isn't back :\

Well, he's been back for a while, but the reason i brought this up is 'cause he was crazy enough to call me in the middle of the night( that was the normal part) AND went on to let me know he was outside my house. As I peeked out of my window, I saw his farking bright HD headlights bouncing off the road. When I went out, he was standing there with Mr. Ngeaw. Couldn't really tell who Keith brought at first cause when I talked to the guy on the phone, he just started talking with an accent. Details of the conversation with Joel will remain private for the sake of both parties. XD

MBO opened up a few weeks ago, so went on the 2nd day of the Big Open. Went in, wasn't so impressed with the lobby, but when I entered the hallway to the cineplexes, I almost soiled myself. Yes, I have never actually gone to the high-end cinemas in Peninsular or even Sabah, so yeah, I was easily impressed. When it came to the cineplexes, it was good. Seats were placed at very good heights so you won't get blocked by shadows of people's head, and the walkspace in a row was wide, so people don't have to move around when people want to get to their seats. And the best part of all is that, THE ROWS ARE LABELLED CLEARLY, EVEN WHEN YOU'RE LATE FOR A MOVIE. :D A good layout plan. And of course, the movie's Dolby Surround Sound is awesome, speakers ain't too loud or too soft. Tried a 3-D film. It was good 'cause the glasses are big(or maybe my face is small) so you can actuallyw ear your spectacles within the 3-d glasses :D

Anyway, here's a picture of one of the halls from one of the right-hand rows.


We're not really suppose to take photos, but hey, I never really did care when those rules come to play...
Salesperson:"NO PHOTOS!"

Op, too late...

Ya know what I mean? :)

August Downdate

Damn, this blog is dead-ing. Hahah, anywayyy, I'd like to apollogise to everybody(who still checks out this blog) for making the whole atmosphere of this blog emo-ish. Yes, I went through a crazy uninspiring time and I had to let it out somehow. :) But everything's good now. Been busy doing Swinburne stuff and getting trying to get fat for the past 5 weeks. Honestly, all I did was just eat, sleep and occasionally go to toilet. There was a week where I didn't have any transportation, so, like, food input and sleep was increased twofold. :S Within those five weeks, I met up with family whom I thought I wouldn't see in a few years.
Gotten closer to cousins lately. Something not unexpected. Always had that special bond with 'em. And it's good to know that they're there for me. Don't think you're reading this guys, but thanks. Watched G.I Joe few days ago. AWESOME effects!! Not as cool as Transformers 2, but nonetheless a crazy butt 2 hours well spent! I was kinda lucky cause the seats I got didn't smell like piss and stuff, so yeahhh :D:D Go watch it! GO NOW. Anyway, will give a more picturish blog post soon. :)

Oh yeah... a collision caused this to happen.

:(
Rust in Peace

The Face's Disguise

I don't know why, but it feels like, for the most part, that I'm losing my mind. If it's not assignments that's worrying me, it's bound to be something else.

I feel super stressed out, even if I don't show it. And thing is, I don't want to show it out, until now. It just feels wrong to include people into your misery, at least to me it does. I don't know. It maybe the stress talk, it maybe the fact that I haven't got good sleep in a while. I'm not sure if it's the 12 continuous weeks in college and assignments being thrown at any student from all directions, but not to say I'm giving up, but I wouldn't mind things slowing down. Even just a little bit.

I used to say "don't think too much" to a friend, but it just seems to be getting harder to do each passing day. Aiyoh, this blog is turning into an emo one. Apoo...

See, you wanted to know what's going on as of lately with the guy that makes people laugh? This is what is happening.

Doesn't
it
change
your
perception
of
me?

Forget Twilight...Swinight

More pics of tonight will be on FB soon.

This pic, I like.