Those Nights

Pretty sure everybody has had their fair share of terrible nights. You know, the nights where you cannot stop thinking about something bad or the night where you had a major fight with your significant other. Sometimes you just cannot stop yourself from thinking about the bad memory or experience over and over again.

All that thinking may lead to some outburst of emotion eventually, but most of the times, after that brief adrenalized segment, we get tired and just fall to sleep. Call it a science process, but I like to think of it as our mind's way of giving us a free pass and letting us get through the night by sleeping it off.

For me, I'm not sure if I take this way too seriously, but, I also look at it as a way to just run away from acknowledging that: "Hey, it's not gonna be a good night because so and so. So instead of thinking about it, try get some sleep and tomorrow may be better". Yes, running away doesn't solve anything, but when you know that the reason you're down is coming from something that's gonna happen then and there whether you like it or not, what choice could you think of? I mean, realistically (and probably synical?) the problem has weakened your mind somewhat, so would you have the strength to go on to better things on that particular night?

I'm just saying. Life is unfair. And our mind knows that. So maybe in some way, the mind protects us from harm "subconcsciously". I mean, heck, the mind is known for protecting us by sometimes letting us see or hear things we only want to see or hear as opposed to reality, ya know? I know "subconcsiously" is spelled wrongly and is probably not the right word. Forgiveness

Bottom line is personally I do not know whether this is a blessing in disguise to get through the night, or just another cheap way of finding a way around a problem. Even worse, a problem that kills me 'cause i know it's out of my hands.

It's always the nights that get you.