"I know dad. You tell me everyday"
That was a quite from the movie Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs. Movie was overall good, filled with funny scenes, along with Disney's always-close-to-perfect "aww"-themes that they always instill in their movies. Seriously tho', I think the art work and graphics were just superb.
After sitting in Hall 2 for approximately one and a half hours watching the movie, Irealised started to think of my dad and how much I miss him. Not to say i don't miss him on a daily basis lah, but it never struck out that much until tonight. I guess after watching sooo many movies with father-son related themes wihtout feeling too much sorrow, this one broke the camel's back. ( or whatever the saying is)
I don't really know what to say when people start to ask when people ask me how does my dad go to work if I drive my car to uni, let alone talk about my father. LOL. I know it sounds pathetic, but I always pause to choose my words carefully. Even now, I'm sort of struggling to put words that will fit the frame as to what I want to say tonight. So, here it goes.
Dad,
It's been many years already since you went on to live in Paradise. And yet, the hole you left in mummy, Jojo and my lives still remain. No one ever failed to remind us of the man you built yourself to be within the 49 years, 8 months and 24 days you were put on this realm of Man's first life.
Went to watch Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs last night with a few friends. And there was a character that reminded me so much of you.
I remembered one of the last things you told me. You were lying down on the sofa in our house, when you asked me to come over. Mom was sitting on the bed, listening to every word you struggled to say despite the bad cough and pain you were in. And up to this day, I promise to pursue what you have asked me to do. Not because it was a mere last wish from my dad, but because even after you continuously keep giving and giving this family everything, it was the only thing you asked of me to do. If you were alive today, I know that you would be proud to see the many opportunities that have been opened to me at the uni. I won't list them out, for you already know what they are anyway. But hey, who's to say that if you were still here with us, we wouldn't be in Perth right now? I would be studying in Information Tech., and you will be back in school pursuing your lifelong dream of becoming a pastor, just as we initially planned out.
Mummy misses you so much too, She has gone back to work, because she has found an opportunity to do what she loves to do, and that is to educate children. She always said that even if they are constantly a bit louder than the average adult, children are always genuine when they ask questions. Bet you're laughing your butt off everytime you see mom have to instill discipline. :) Jojo has decided to pursue her Masters, but has been offered many job opportunities ever since she left NUS. I see so much of you, in the logic and the temper sense, in her. I'm sure deep in her heart of hearts, she misses you as much as we do.
The last Christmas we spent together, the four of us, I still remember it very very clearly. We were in the room, you were lying down, Mom was sitting beside you, and Jo and I were sitting on the sofa's hand rest. And.we.all.just.talked. It was the best family Christmas we had.
It's now 1.22am, and I have so much to say, but I shall stop for now. I know I have said this already, but I miss you so much. But I want you to know, that despite you not being here physically, what keeps me going everyday is knowing that you're still watching over us up there with God.
I never needed to say this,
Because you always knew,
But I'll willingly say it, ten times, a hundred times, a million times, a billion times,
"Dad, I Miss You, and I Will Always Love You".
And please dear reader, until you have lost someone as close as a father to you, don't you DARE come close to believing or saying this post is emo.
That was a quite from the movie Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs. Movie was overall good, filled with funny scenes, along with Disney's always-close-to-perfect "aww"-themes that they always instill in their movies. Seriously tho', I think the art work and graphics were just superb.
After sitting in Hall 2 for approximately one and a half hours watching the movie, I
I don't really know what to say when people start to ask when people ask me how does my dad go to work if I drive my car to uni, let alone talk about my father. LOL. I know it sounds pathetic, but I always pause to choose my words carefully. Even now, I'm sort of struggling to put words that will fit the frame as to what I want to say tonight. So, here it goes.
Dad,
It's been many years already since you went on to live in Paradise. And yet, the hole you left in mummy, Jojo and my lives still remain. No one ever failed to remind us of the man you built yourself to be within the 49 years, 8 months and 24 days you were put on this realm of Man's first life.
Went to watch Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs last night with a few friends. And there was a character that reminded me so much of you.
He wanted the best for his child,
just as you did.
He woke up everyday and told him that he loved his son,just like you did...
He put his own health and life before the security of his family,just as you did...
He always made sure he let his son know he loved him every single day,just like you did.
I remembered one of the last things you told me. You were lying down on the sofa in our house, when you asked me to come over. Mom was sitting on the bed, listening to every word you struggled to say despite the bad cough and pain you were in. And up to this day, I promise to pursue what you have asked me to do. Not because it was a mere last wish from my dad, but because even after you continuously keep giving and giving this family everything, it was the only thing you asked of me to do. If you were alive today, I know that you would be proud to see the many opportunities that have been opened to me at the uni. I won't list them out, for you already know what they are anyway. But hey, who's to say that if you were still here with us, we wouldn't be in Perth right now? I would be studying in Information Tech., and you will be back in school pursuing your lifelong dream of becoming a pastor, just as we initially planned out.
Mummy misses you so much too, She has gone back to work, because she has found an opportunity to do what she loves to do, and that is to educate children. She always said that even if they are constantly a bit louder than the average adult, children are always genuine when they ask questions. Bet you're laughing your butt off everytime you see mom have to instill discipline. :) Jojo has decided to pursue her Masters, but has been offered many job opportunities ever since she left NUS. I see so much of you, in the logic
The last Christmas we spent together, the four of us, I still remember it very very clearly. We were in the room, you were lying down, Mom was sitting beside you, and Jo and I were sitting on the sofa's hand rest. And.we.all.just.talked. It was the best family Christmas we had.
It's now 1.22am, and I have so much to say, but I shall stop for now. I know I have said this already, but I miss you so much. But I want you to know, that despite you not being here physically, what keeps me going everyday is knowing that you're still watching over us up there with God.
I never needed to say this,
Because you always knew,
~
But I'll willingly say it, ten times, a hundred times, a million times, a billion times,
"Dad, I Miss You, and I Will Always Love You".
And please dear reader, until you have lost someone as close as a father to you, don't you DARE come close to believing or saying this post is emo.
1 comment:
It's not emo at all. You just... tell how you feel. And I think that's great :)
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